why is it that i always end up pushing away the people i love espcially the on e girl i love an want to marry an be with forever. but now it will never happen cause i am an asshole an i hurt the one girl that cares for me an loves me. there is no excusse for the way i acted to her i balme my self for my stupidity. she didnt deserve for me to say i dont think you should be here cause i didnt know she was joking with me when she said im not a very good cook. so like an idiot i am i took it the wrong way an told her i dont think she should be here so she left crying cause of me being an asshole... dose any one know why people say stupid things? cause of what i said i dont think she is ever going to want to see me ever again an i dont blame her if she doesnt see me again, i wouldnt want to see my self again if told my self that I AM SUCH AN ASSHOLE DICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!